Medication on top of natural medication (fresh produce---yum!)
Triple threat: Bleeding out three ways. 
Time for a pump set change.
Hooked up to my CGM and my insulin pump. It's not pretty, but it's my life.
I LOVE seeing a 100 on my meter. It's like a little present. On March 24, my D-Day (diagnosis day), will mark five years with this disease. What a roller coaster ride it's been so far. I'm not a veteran, but I'm not a newbie.
Diabetes has given me so much, but it's also taken away a lot. I face the D giant every day, not sure if my day will be successful or considered a failure.
Diabetes has spurred my writing career. It's opened me up to a world of learning about nutrition, exercise, the workings of my body, other diseases, going green, and motherhood. I've spoken at diabetes conferences, volunteered at a hospital in the diabetes center, and encouraged diabetics one-on-one.
Diabetes has taken away my free-spirit. I can't naively prance through life without a care in the world. Not even for a second. Diabetes is with me 24/7. It dictates what I do and when and how. Experiences like dates with my husband can become nightmares with the discovery of a dangerously high blood sugar. I can't plan everything, even though I desperately want to. I've had to be "in control" all the time, yet even when I do everything right, the response by my body is so often wrong.
Balance. Peaks. Valleys. Joys. Heartaches. Depression. Pleasant surprises. Blood. Numbers. Needles. Appointments. Sugar. Sleep. Feet. Vision. Hope. Defeat. Future. Past.
Diabetes something I'll never fully understand. But as a Believer, I look forward to the day when my body is made whole again and I can sit with Jesus on a cloud and devour white flour pancakes. :)
Happy 5 Years to me! I'm proud of how hard I've worked. And I pray I have the strength, grace, and determination to continue choosing a healthy, happy life.
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4 comments:
Wow, Rachel the photos really put it into perspective for me. I will be praying for you as I know you are really struggling with your health. ((HUGS))
I LOVE that you took a picture of a perfect 100! I've done that before, although sometimes it's also the picture of the 400-something, which is then to a friend as a way of saying "sorry I was such a bi*ch earlier"
Rachel, I found you today through SUM, and I am so grateful that you've been documenting your life through your blogs. I, too, am a Christian, wife, English teacher, 29 year-old, Type A, Type I diabetic. My husband and I are currently exploring different pathways to parenting, and your blog(s), I'm sure, will prove to be a valuable resource! God bless...
I know exactly how you feel.
For me, this diagnosis is so bitter sweet. It's such a pain in the butt to deal with day in and day out...callused fingers, worrying about how many carbs are in everything.....
It's also led me to a career in health care I probably never would have considered!
I too look forward to the day when I can sit on a cloud with Jesus and devour white flour pancakes...without carb counting. =]
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